The Light Inside

Life is truly beautiful. Just look at the trees: The leaves are green, the trunk is brown and the flowers are colorful.

I sat in the balcony of my house thinking about the beautiful redbud1 tree that was there, and the whiff of wet mud refreshed my memories again. I still remember that day. It was raining. I was staying in a house surrounded by trees. The sky was adorned with rain clouds. The eucalyptus tree in the garden swayed with joy and the air was filled with the sweet smell of wet mud. It was truly glorious.

It was summer and we had vacations. I had had a lot of fun going for picnics, learning to swim and climbing mountains. It had been a wonderful vacation. School was just a week away and I was very happy; I would be in a new class. Well, let me not think about that as yet. I still had a week!

My friend came over and we were playing in the garden when we decided to climb a tree. It was a little slippery2 but I had to get up there and touch those tender green leaves. They are always softer than the others.

As I tried to reach it, I slipped and fell. The next thing I remembered was that I woke up. I tried to open my eyes, or I felt that my eyes were open, but I could not see anything but darkness. I knew I was in the hospital. I could smell it but the darkness that I saw was weird3. I mean I had been in darkness before; however, even when it is dark I could at least see something.

"How did I get here?" I thought. Then I remembered playing with this friend of mine and now I knew I fell off the tree.

I must have moved because my mother held my hand. Her small little podgy4 hands were so soft. She came and gave me a kiss. I wanted to see her so I said," Mom, could you please switch on the light? It is too dark. I want to see you."

She sounded puzzled, "But the lights are on, sweetheart!"

I was confused. I touched my eyes. As I have mentioned, I felt them open but I wanted to make sure. "Are you sure that the lights are on Mummy, because I can’t see you?" I said.

Suddenly I felt very scared. I wanted to see my mother. And then an idea flashed in my mind; it sent a shudder5 all over of me. I knew something had gone wrong with me. I felt that I had become blind and won’t be able to see again. "No, this can’t be true. This is not happening to me," I started to cry.

The doctors rushed in and immediately a series of tests were taken. Then they gave me the news I already knew. I was depressed and angry.

I hated the world, and the only question I had was, WHY ME?

I stayed this way for quite some time. Everyone tried to cheer me up. My best friend came to see me every day and she told me stories about school. She read to me but I wanted to be in school too. It was my school!

So one day I walked up to my Dad and told him, "Daddy, I want to go to school." "That’s great!" my father exclaimed, "There is a new school not very far from here; I will get you admitted there."

"A different school? No! I want to go to my school," I said.

My father tried to explain that I would not be able to fit in, but I was adamant6. After some time he gave up.

"I am not going to a blind school," I thought.

A few weeks went by and I tried to occupy myself and not think of my eyes, but nothing helped. I was totally consumed by grief7. I was totally frustrated. I could not even get up and go to the living room by myself. I needed somebody all the time. I felt very dependent and helpless.

I was standing in my balcony wondering, "Why Me?" when it began to rain. The whiff of the wet mud smell filled my lungs and suddenly I felt someone whisper in my heart, "Life is full of choices, so choose to be happy."

That night when I slept, I kept dreaming of the words. When I woke up the next morning, I felt happy and hopeful and suddenly I knew things would get better. Those words that was whispered in my heart made me seriously think about the situation I was in, and I knew I had the choice of either sitting and sulking1 about life or to go out there and learn to live a wholesome2 life. I knew that my choice was to live life to the full.

At breakfast I announced to my Dad, "Daddy, I want to go to blind school. Would you take me there?" My father hugged me and said, "My dear, I am proud of you. Of course I will take you there."

My mother hugged me too. I knew she was overwhelmed3 with emotion. I knew she had tears in her eyes, because I felt them.

That morning was the new beginning. I went to this school and I heard a lot of children. I finally heard the voices of children after months of waiting. My new teacher escorted me to the class where we were taught to write in Braille4 and to type in Braille. The best part, we had our own library with books in Braille. There I learned how to read and write in Braille, though I must admit that I found it quite difficult.

One day, I sat in the library trying to read but I was unable to. I became very disappoint-ed and sad. My father came in and sat next to me. He noticed that I was unusually quiet and knew something must be wrong; he always knew.

"Hi, sweetheart, how is school going on?" he asked.

"Daddy, I can’t do this. I try and try but I just don’t get it sometimes. I don’t know if I am ever going to learn to read Braille. It is too tough," I cried.

Daddy just held me tight and said, "Do you remember that we went to the temple which is on the top of a mountain? When we were climbing the mountain, my legs started aching. I sat down and said, 'I can’t see the temple. Where is it?’ You told me, 'Daddy, the temple is there. You can’t see it because it is covered with fog. Although you can’t see it, I know it is there. I also know you will climb up to it. I will make sure you do.’"

"Well sweetheart, that day you showed me that just you can’t see something, does not mean it is not there. So although climbing the mountain was difficult I knew the temple was there and I knew I would reach it."

I was clear about what my Dad wanted me to understand.

I went back to school and started with new vigor. Very soon I could read. One day my friends and I talked about ourselves. I spoke about how beautiful the world looks and how I missed seeing it. And the one thing I most missed seeing, was my parents.

After I said that, I was very quiet, just thinking, when the girl next to me said, "You are lucky you know. You have at least seen them. I have just heard them. You have seen flowers. I can just imagine how they look and I can only smell them. I have been told there are many colors in this world but I don’t understand what color means."

After listening to her for the first time in two years I felt lucky to have at least pictures to relate to the world. And on that day I learnt that although the light in my eyes is gone, I must see the world with the light in my heart.

心靈的明燈

張輝 譯

生命確實(shí)是美麗的。看看那些樹，綠油油的葉子，褐色的樹干，五彩斑斕的花朵。

我坐在家里的陽臺(tái)上對著美麗的紫荊樹遐想著，濕潤的泥土氣味又一次喚起了我的記憶。我仍舊記著那一天，下著雨，我正在一個(gè)被樹環(huán)繞的房子里面。天空烏云密布，花園里的桉樹歡快地?fù)u曳著，空氣中彌漫著甜甜的濕土的氣味。那情景真是很棒。

那是一個(gè)夏天，我們還在假期中。我的假日生活趣味橫生——野餐，學(xué)游泳，爬山。那真是一個(gè)美妙的假期。還有一個(gè)禮拜就開學(xué)了，我將要去一個(gè)新班級，現(xiàn)在我仍舊非?？鞓贰Ｎ腋约赫f不要去想學(xué)校的事，畢竟還有一個(gè)禮拜呢！

我的朋友過來找我，我們一同在花園玩，之后我們決定爬樹。樹有點(diǎn)滑，但我一心想要爬上去，摸摸上面那些更嫩的綠葉，那些葉子總是比其他的葉子更柔軟。

我努力向上爬去，可是腳底突然一滑，摔了下來。接下來，我所記得的就是醒了過來。我試圖睜開雙眼，或者說我感覺自己的眼睛是睜著的，但卻看不到任何東西，眼前一片黑暗。我知道自己在醫(yī)院里，因?yàn)槲夷苈劦贸鰜?，可是眼前的黑暗卻讓我感覺很奇怪。自己以前也曾在黑暗中待過，可是那至少也能看到一些東西。

“我是怎么到這兒的？”我心里想。然后我想起自己和朋友玩耍。這時(shí)我明白了，自己從樹上摔下來了。

我一定是有些激動(dòng)，因?yàn)閶寢屧谖罩业氖郑请p小小的厚實(shí)的手是那么的柔軟。她過來給了我一個(gè)吻。我很想看到她，于是便說：“媽媽，您能把燈打開嗎？太黑了，我想看見你?！?/P>

她為難地說道：“可是，親愛的，燈開著??！”

我很迷惑，摸了摸自己的眼睛。正像我前面提到的，我感覺自己睜著眼，可我還是想確認(rèn)一下?！皨寢專愦_定燈開著嗎？為什么我看不到你？”我問。

突然，我感到非常害怕，我想看見我的媽媽。隨即一個(gè)念頭閃入我腦中，讓我全身一陣發(fā)冷。我意識(shí)到自己出了問題，知道自己瞎了，再也看不見了?！安?，這不是真的，這不會(huì)發(fā)生在我身上。”我開始哭起來。

這時(shí)大夫沖了進(jìn)來，立即開始給我做一系列檢查，然后告訴了我這個(gè)已知道的事實(shí)。我沮喪、憤怒。

我恨這個(gè)世界，我唯一的問題是：為什么會(huì)是我？

我一直處于這種狀態(tài)相當(dāng)長一段時(shí)間。每個(gè)人都想盡辦法讓我快樂起來。我最好的朋友天天過來看我，她向我講學(xué)校里的事，為我朗讀?？墒俏乙蚕肴ド蠈W(xué)啊，那是我的學(xué)校！

于是，有一天我對爸爸說想去上學(xué)?！澳翘昧?！”爸爸歡呼道，“離這不太遠(yuǎn)，有一所新學(xué)校，我會(huì)設(shè)法讓你在那兒入學(xué)?！?/P>

“另一所學(xué)校嗎？我不去，我想去我的學(xué)校?！蔽艺f。

爸爸盡量向我解釋現(xiàn)在我已不再適合原先那所學(xué)校，但是我非常堅(jiān)持。一段時(shí)間 后，他放棄了。

“我是不會(huì)去盲人學(xué)校的?！蔽倚睦锵搿?/P>

幾個(gè)禮拜過去了，我努力讓自己忙起來不去想眼睛的事，可是沒有用，我完全被憂傷吞噬了，十分的沮喪、懊惱。我甚至不能獨(dú)自站起來走到起居室。我無時(shí)無刻不需要?jiǎng)e人的陪伴，我覺得自己是那么地依賴別人，內(nèi)心十分無助。

我站在陽臺(tái)上心里疑惑著“為什么是我？”，這時(shí)雨開始下起來。一陣濕潤的泥土氣息沁入了我的心脾，突然間我感到內(nèi)心有個(gè)聲音在悄悄對我說：“生活充滿了各種各樣的選擇，所以你應(yīng)該選擇幸福?！?/P>

那天晚上睡夢中這些話一直不斷地出現(xiàn)。第二天清晨醒來，我感覺心情愉快，心中充滿了希望，突然間我覺得一切都會(huì)好起來。那些在我心中被悄悄說出的話讓我開始認(rèn)真思量起自己的處境來。我明白現(xiàn)在自己既可選擇沉淪于生命帶給我的厄運(yùn)中坐以待斃，也可以選擇走出逆境，學(xué)著過一種健康向上的生活。

早餐的時(shí)候，我向爸爸宣布：“爸爸，我想去盲人學(xué)校，你會(huì)帶我去那兒嗎？”爸爸擁抱著我說：“親愛的，我為你感到驕傲，我當(dāng)然會(huì)帶你去那兒。”

媽媽也擁抱著我，我知道她被翻涌的感情淹沒了，我也知道她眼中含著淚，因?yàn)槲腋杏X到了她的淚珠。

那天早晨是一個(gè)新的開始。我去了學(xué)校，聽到了許多孩子們的聲音，在數(shù)月的等待后，我終于又聽到了他們的聲音。我的新老師護(hù)送我到了班級，在這里老師將教我們用盲文來書寫，用盲文來打印。最棒的是，我們還有自己的盲文圖書館。在這兒，我學(xué)會(huì)了如何讀寫盲文，盡管我必須承認(rèn)這真的相當(dāng)難。

一天，當(dāng)我坐在圖書館里試著閱讀的時(shí)候，卻發(fā)現(xiàn)自己辦不到，我變得非常沮喪和難過。爸爸走過來坐在了我旁邊。他注意到我異乎尋常的安靜，便知道一定出了什么問題，他總是會(huì)知道。

“嗨，親愛的，書讀得怎么樣啊？”他問道。

“爸爸，我做不到，我試了又試，可有時(shí)我還是做不到。我不知道自己是否會(huì)學(xué)會(huì)盲文，它太難了。”我哭起來。

爸爸緊緊地握住我對我說：“還記得那次我們?nèi)ド巾斏系哪亲鶑R嗎？爬山的時(shí)候，我的腿開始疼痛，然后我坐下來問你：‘我看不見廟。它在哪兒？’你告訴我：‘爸爸，廟就在那兒，你看不見是因?yàn)樗混F遮蓋住了。盡管你看不見，我卻知道它就在那兒，我也知道你會(huì)爬上去的，我保證你辦得到?！?/P>

“親愛的，那天你向我表明看不見什么東西并不意味著那個(gè)東西不在那兒。所以，盡管爬山很艱難，但我知道廟就在那兒，我也知道自己會(huì)爬上去?！?/P>

我清楚爸爸想讓我明白什么。

我回到了學(xué)校，以嶄新的精神面貌又開始了學(xué)習(xí)，不久我就發(fā)現(xiàn)自己可以閱讀了。一天我和朋友們聊天。我感慨世界看起來是多么美麗，我又是多么懷念能看到它的日子，而我最懷念的就是我父母的樣子。

說完這些之后，我沉默著，心里想著事情，這時(shí)我旁邊的女孩說：“你知道嗎，你很幸運(yùn)，至少你還見過他們，而我卻僅僅聽過他們的聲音。你看到過花朵，我卻只能聞到它們的氣味，想象它們的樣子。別人告訴我這個(gè)世界有很多種色彩，可我卻不明白這些色彩到底意味著什么。”

聽完她的話，兩年里我第一次感到自己幸運(yùn)，因?yàn)槲夷X中至少還保存有這個(gè)世界的畫面。那一天，我明白了盡管現(xiàn)實(shí)世界中的光亮永遠(yuǎn)從我面前消失了，但我一定會(huì)用內(nèi)心的明燈來看這個(gè)世界。

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